Blog-Xperiment Final

I think Lorazepam (Ativan) is another word for sleeping pill.  I was drowsy, fell asleep, thus, no anxiety.  I feel robbed.  Ah well.  I took the last pill about 10 minutes ago and am waiting for it to kick in.

Tomorrow morning at 4:30 am I will awaken and repeat my shower from tonight.  Normally I would not tell you about my shower as, let's be honest, no one needs to know about my showers... but!  This time, I did it with a solution called "Hibiclens" and will be required to do it again in the morning.  Scrub everywhere and my head twice. Twice.  I'm gonna be super-clean! 

Then at 5:45 am I will drive over to the hospital with my family in tow.  My mom is here with my step-dad.  My wife is here.  Her dad is coming in tonight.  (His plane got massively delayed and by the time he got here, his reservation had been cancelled at the place where we are all staying and the office closed)  He is staying close to the airport and will come out tomorrow.  My father is here with his wife.  They RV'ed in from Southern California where they were wintering.  My brother is flying in tomorrow afternoon.  Thanks guys.  I guess it IS nice to have people.

My surgery is scheduled to start at 7:30 am with admissions at 6 am.  I will be in surgery for who-knows-how-long, but people start going home after eight hours, so....

I will show Melissa or somebody how to post using my Blackberry so we can get updates from the hospital.

Everybody have a productive day tomorrow and don't spend too much time looking me up.  I don't want the entire plane to come to a stop just because I am having surgery.  (I secretly do, just don't tell anyone)

Days to surgery - none.  Just one looooooong night.  Sleep safe.

Blog-xperiment #1-B

30 minutes in and I am still awake.  My anxiety does seem to be reduced.  I have been playing on-line pool and my ability to shoot has been reduced but that mya be because I am getting sleepy.  The two may be related, the ativan and the sleepiness. 

My toes tingle.  I think the experiment is over.  Going to take a nap.  This was not as fun an experiment as I was hoping.

Blog-xperiment #1-A

I changed the name of the title.  Now it's more fusion.  Ok, so I am a little less headachy, but hat could be from all the hydration (I am drinking a lot of fluids).  My fingers seem more leaden as typing is becoming a touch more difficult.  Otherwise, still fairly clear-headed.  See you in 15 minutes.

Blog Experiment #1

I have just taken my first lorazepam (aka ativan... I misspelled it earlier).  I will be checking in every 15 minutes to tell you what the effects are like. 

So far, feel anxious and headachy.  No effect yet.

Bravery is Over-Rated

The sun has a tendency to drive away persistent fears. No shadows lurk, no secrets abide, no lingering doubt exists when the bold light of the sun shines down.

When the sun is out it's easy to be brave. But when it goes down... Things get tricky. It's tough to be brave when your guts are twisted, every second is an effort to keep your lunch down, when you have to distract yourself with a million different things to keep from thinking about the darkness that surrounds you.

Not that I'M like that, mind you. I have this thing licked (it is daylight out... Right?) And the only discomfort I have been subjected to is a little lost sleep. The end result is a grumpy Kurt. A poked, prodded, stabbed, irradiated, grumpy Kurt.

So, for my family's benefit, I have decided to forego bravery and call the Doctor's Office for some meds. They have prescribed me two pills of Atavan. It ain' t Valium, but... whatever!

With a little help from my chemical friends I found out you don't NEED bravery; entirely overrated, been done to death, bravery. So, here's to tonight with all the horrors that darkness holds.

Kiss my ass! (Pardon my French)
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Test post from Blacberry

This is a test sending a post from my Blackberry. If it works I won't have to fire up my computer for an entry.
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Second Set of Appointments Over!

Nothing to say today. 

Today was rough.

I will post again before the surgery and maybe put a bright smily face up so we can compare what comes after.

The good news is that EVERYONE at the hospital RAVES about my neurosurgeon.  I mean, like they were members of his fan club.

Until the morrow comes...

1 full day left to enjoy before surgery.  I may need Valium.